Yung okay ka na. Tanggap mo na. Then here he comes again. Asking to be with him. And of course, there you are giving him every thing in his convenience. But then again… again and again. He can never be the one who would step out of his comfort zone and give you what you deserve. He can never be that man you wish he could be. The man,not the boy, not the guy. THE MAN!
Ask and you will get an answer.
I asked God for a go sign and He gave me a clear and big answer!
I wasn’t able to take a photo of that billboard in EDSA that night of January 2… and never saw it ever again. I’m glad I found one at the internet! Credits to the owner. Here it is: KEEP CALM|TRUE LOVE WAITS With a footnote that really hit me like God wants me not to rush things out… after almost 3 months of seeing this sign God showed me, I never had regret of listening to Him. Hey, Diomay…. www.huwagmuna.com
Oo. Kahit ako mismo hindi makapaniwala. Hindi ko inaasahan ang lahat. Ni hindi nga ako nagday-dream na magaganap ang mga ganung bagay. Bukod sa wala akong oras sa pagdeday-dream eh, graduate na rin ako sa season na gumaganun pa. I’d rather talk to God and pray about it.
He’s too handsome. Almost all the girls I know that knows him have a crush on him. Who will ever thought that I will be the one to get noticed by his beautiful eyes?
And it hurts me to hear side comments from other people. Una pa lang, I expect them to say like… “feelingera”, “ikaw lang kasi ung nandyan”… but they all stopped when they saw that we really get along so well. And they start asking if we’re officially together. No. Hindi kami. It’s too early. Yes, i like him. Others might say, choosy pa ako or grab it! No. I have my standards and as of now, he didn’t reach it.
And one of my colleagues said, “hindi pa rin kapanipaniwala na gusto niya si Diomay”. Oo na. Hindi na kapanipaniwala na gusto nya ko dahil hindi ako kasing ganda ng iba… mas hindi siguro kapanipaniwala para sayo ang nasa last sentence ng naunang paragraph ko.
Nasaktan ako when he said it to my face. YES, STRAIGHT TO MY FACE! But then, I realized, bakit ko siya papakinggan. He don’t even know that guy the way I do, or know me the way the guy I date(d) does.
I felt bad. I slept. And now, I feel beautiful.
My God is writing my love story. And when He knows that I’m ready for it and he is ready for me, you’ll be more amazed and surprised.
You might say that loving me is unbelievable, but let me say this to you… with GOD NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.
I am loved, so you are.
I didn’t let things go deeper and higher like what other people are expecting… like what i am expecting, actually. Maybe because… It’s not suppose to get deeper and higher.
I thank God because He didn’t forget His promise that He will never let my heart be broken, I just have to guard it. He showed me to set standards and boundaries according to His will. I’m not closing doors and windows or put high fences around me to really guard myself from getting broken. Whatever is ahead of me, whoever is there… I fiercely face them with class, standard and boundary.
In His perfect magical time, we will find the love we deserve. We will experience the life God prepared for us with the person we were meant for. It might be him and I, who would know?
When that time comes, when he is ready and that he is more open for new ideas, or when he’s ready to live outside the box and get out of his comfort zone…. maybe that time that I am ready in every aspect of my life… maybe when that time came along and he’s still here… I would be able to answer all those questions he asked me that night.
I’m not saying he have to change for me to love him and accept him. God knows I’ve been specific when I prayed that I want to know and get along with him. He’s been simply perfect for me. He’s too perfect. He’s the perfect illustration of the man I’ve been dreaming of since I learned about fairytales and love stories. How many times should I use the word ‘perfect’ here?
Thank God, he came when I’m on a stage of my life where I stopped looking at love as emotion that cannot be controlled. On the exact day that I turned 23, he showed up! *taannaaaannnn* what an unexpected birthday gift?!?
I admit it, after going out and spending time together, i tried not to invest too much emotion (and I thank him for not allowing me to…) like what I do before. As much as possible, date him, know him, set boundaries… going out doesn’t make you a couple. Let guys pursue you and let them pay the price of your precious ‘yes’, princess.
For now, I have to say that I am letting God work between us. I’m asking God to work on us individually. And I can feel His power. I’m doing perfectly fine. I never felt this secured with my feelings. And I will always be thankful for giving me that man…
Love is indeed a choice… I’m choosing to be a better person now and prepare for that perfect magical time.
It’s not a No. Bear that in mind.
It’s a ‘not now’.
I want to love you…
…in the future.
someday, I will have a lot to tell our children about us… and I know, they would love to hear it. I want our story be their favorite of all… better than any Disney tale. I would love to share to them the value of time and space we created; the choices we made; and the love, trust and patience we gave.
Someday, I will tell our children how God put us together to build a family. And that they are our God sent little angels, that bring sweet laughs all around the house. They will know how dedicated and hardworking you are. And how you make their mom fall in love every single day.
In time, I would tell about our Fairytale to our own princes and princesses…
Dear Future Lover Of Mine, I Hope I Don’t Meet You Anytime Soon
I don’t know your name. I don’t know who you are or where you are or when we will ever meet. I don’t know whether or not you are already in my life somewhere. I don’t even know if you exist in this lifetime. I’d like to believe you’re walking this earth someplace, but sometimes I’m not sure if I even believe in the idea of fate and romance anymore. Maybe you can save me from myself.
If you are in this lifetime and on this planet though, I hope I don’t meet you anytime soon. I have a lot to learn and I will probably hurt you, because I don’t know yet that you are the one who will make me happy.
I’ve been through a lot. But while I wish you could have been there with me, I know you will be proud of me because of how strong I turned out to be and all the things I made it through without you. See, I had to be alone for a while so I’d know what I’m capable of. And so I’d appreciate having someone like you more.
I like being single right now because all my time is mine. I need to be single for a while so I will not regret not having this kind of freedom in the future. When I’m yours, I’ll be completely yours because I had this time to be mine.
But sometimes I miss being in love. There are days when I wish you can get here faster just so I can have the kind of love that I’ve been waiting for since what feels like forever. But I guess it’s better that you’re not here yet because I don’t know how to be with you right now. I’ll probably say a lot of really stupid things and scare you away.
You won’t just the love of my life, you will also be my best friend in the world. I’d always thought of all my old loves as best friends at the time, but I don’t think I ever really knew what that meant. I love that I will be able to tell you anything and everything and know that you will be the one person in the world who understands.
We won’t always get along and we will more-than-possibly get into some really ugly fights, but I know that in the end, we can make it through because nothing is more important than learning and growing together.
We are probably different people with diverse interests, and that’s a good thing. We will make time for what is important to the other because we like making each other happy. Of course, there will be things that we enjoy doing together. We will spend some days curled up with a blanket and books or popcorn and a good movie. Braveheart will always be a favorite between us, and reruns of FRIENDS will take up some of our lazy Sundays. But we will spend most of our time going around the world together, seeing places we’ve only once dreamed of traveling to.
We both love to talk and laugh, and we will spend a lot of our time getting to know each other. Even when we’ve been together 20 years, we will always find something new about the other or reminisce about the people we once had to be to get there. And while I will probably roll my eyes at your jokes, I will also smile just because it’s so cute how you tried to tell the punch line.
You’ve probably loved a girl (or more) before me, and that’s okay. I’m sorry though if you’ve gotten hurt and I wasn’t there to make you feel better. I’ve been in love before you, too, and I’ve also gotten my heart broken and feel like nobody could really understand. It will take a long time before I can let anyone else in again, and maybe you feel the same way. It will be better to find each other after going through all that, just so we will both know how to not take being in love for granted.
We’ve both become better people separately, something I will always be thankful for. And because of all the pain we have to go through before we meet, we will both realize then that we deserve that happiness and we deserve each other.
I don’t know what you look like but I know you have kind eyes and a genuine smile. I don’t know what you do for a living but I know that you will have time for me. I don’t know you, but I know that you can give me hug when I’m down, hold my hand for no reason and kiss me just because you love me.
There’s a possibility though, that you don’t exist, and I’m writing this letter for no one. But in spite of all the cynicism I’m entitled to, I have to believe that you’re out there somewhere. I have to believe that all the heartache I’d ever had to endure will someday lead me to you. I have to believe that God created you because He knew I would need you. And while I know I’m a complete person on my own, I have to believe that someone like you exists, someone who might not complete me, but can make life better. More beautiful. More colorful. A man who can make me believe in love again.
I don’t know who you are or if I’ll ever find you, but I wish with all my heart that you’re out there, waiting, just like I am.
I know that someday I will find you. In this lifetime, or the next, I will I will find you.
“We See You” (Women Can See You Men)
By: Joanne-Marie R. de la Rama
O men, you are made as visual creatures
That we know fully well
You see, you peek, you glance, and you stare
That’s how you make “pacute” to us or let us know you care
But many times, we need more than your stare
We also need to feel and see that you really care
To decipher our codes takes real patience and skill
But once you solve them, it’s like winning a million bills
If you want to learn, be open and see
See women through the eyes of her Creator
We are made with much detail and intricacy
So unique and more than just a delicacy
You see, somewhere inside of you
A woman was made
From a rib to a beat
Our hearts and beings were more than just baked
A vulnerable but strongly built piece
From a man to a woman
God made a masterpiece
And showed His love that will never cease
Men, look and listen to the One who made women
Decode as you ask and seek her Creator
Value her to bits
Listen intently to her heartbeat
Women desire for real men
Not a puppet, a boy, or a macho man
Muscles are a plus
But a godly character is a must
O, call on wisdom all you boys
Men who heed His voice
He who is humble and teachable
Will truly be a choice
Respect and honor are gained
A man of his words
A lad who’s kind even to strangers
Will have more than just fame
Genuine and inner strength
Brains and not brawn we need
Humor and wit we enjoy
But a harsh twit we don’t care to read
No to stink that leads to coma
Listen and love your Mommas
Bathe, deo and gargle
Makes life fresh and less tangled
More than flowers,
We need you men to bloom
More than a Ferrari ride,
You are made to vroom
A complex design
“Emo” and syndromes
Forgive a woman who lets you bring pink purses
Emasculating you with a bag of curses
Men are unique creatures
We all grow in phase
Women require healthy space
We don’t always need to see your face
To decipher us, should not take you forever
As you sought and knocked
To be valued, loved and understood
Code is now cracked
Men, don’t fear us
O, hear modern and independent women
They await for you to awaken
Risen to life and able to lead
Now, bold and courageous hearts we are beginning to see
As real and consistent men awakens
Turned down or not, they’re still up on their feet
We see you men, we see you.
What to say?
What to do?
How to react on things?
"Obey God even when it hurts…." -Pastor Jay-R
I was emotional when I heard this from Pastor. It really strikes me. As if God really whispered the word in my ear… "Stop na…" He even said that. Tears fell.
Sometimes, we feel like we’re okay. We’re fine. But when God speaks to us, you can not really hide what is inside. We maybe looks so strong outside but we’re struggling inside….
In moments like this, there’s one thing I want to do… Cry it out to Him… Ask for strength, wisdom and renewal of the heart.
It maybe hard for us to surrender everything to Him. To let go. To move forward… But only through His grace, I know we can overcome everything.
Lord, help us to trust in You… Our future is safe. We are secured.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)
It’s nice to see myself here in front of the computer while typing then deleting then writing then deleting and writing more… thinking. What should I write? Should I write?
If you will ask me how am I as of the moment, I could say…. I’m happier. :) Happier in a way that I am peaceful, getting a little bit better, stronger and wiser each day. A day older. A day better. A day closer to the day that I am waiting for.
I’m patiently waiting…
I’m preparing ‘cause I am a day closer to what I am praying for. :)